Nic

HAPPY NEW YEARS... EVE

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 21:11:48 GMT

I always forget that I have LJ.
HAPPY NEW YR 2008
I HAVE A BLOG ON BLOG.COM SO FEEL FREE TO CHECK IT =)

I love you all

I'm too lazy to write a lot

I'm against new years resolutions this year fyi

so yeah

Mon, 30 Oct 2006 02:23:22 GMT

whenever im alone with you you make me feel like i am free again... i will always love you

happy thanksgiving

Mon, 09 Oct 2006 02:51:40 GMT

so i graduated on thurs
friday i went to visit st gertrude and talked to some pretty cool old teachers ive realized ive become more mature.. kinda
saturday i did homework
today is sunday and i read did a project n hung out with tania yoo
tomorrow is turkey day

HAPPY THANKSGIVING YALL
im thankful for life

That's right..

Sun, 01 Oct 2006 03:16:59 GMT

.. instead of doing my readings I have decided to post in my LJ! I keep reading other people's but I've been so lazy to write my own. I highly doubt anyone reads it though so if you do leave a comment so I know. I failed my first University test but that's okay because it was my FIRST test, right? I'm still behind but everyone else is too so I'm not as worried. My printer works. Grad is on Thursday so I have to skip 2 classes since theres no point of coming back to Hamilton for one class, I already informed my TA though so I'm good. Melissa and Elisabete look sooo gorgeous now, I'm so jealous. Mainly because I'm super insecure these days. I used to be so pretty and confident now I don't know what's wrong with me. Maybe I need to buy more makeup. I'm single and I have decided that until I can manage a social life with a school life I'll remain single. Boyfriends add stress and work and I don't have time for that. Thus, the single life + Nicole = GREAT! I have friends at McMaster which is always good, right? Right! I still feel awkward around them but I'm finally used to Hamilton. Whidden Hall isn't bad I like it. I don't know what else to talk about. SO, I'll end it here. Alright? Alright!

YAY

Thu, 14 Sep 2006 23:36:41 GMT

I'm going home tomorrow. I'm so happy. I like being here. But it's really hard living here. It's a big jump living on your own andd attending university. But it's also way better living here than living at home while in school because commuting sucks. Nothing big has changed. I'm still behind in my readings. I only have one class tomorrow and group therapy on campus which is always good. Well, that's all.

okay so..

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 20:34:02 GMT

i live in hamilton
a lot has happened
i dont want to type it out
im slowly getting usedto living here
i hate showering here though
i hardly eat
im really behind in readings
that is all

so this is love..

Tue, 29 Aug 2006 01:12:09 GMT

Love grows. I don't believe in love at first sight but you can be attracted to someone at first sight. Love is not an obsession. If you truly love someone you can live without them, you might miss them everyday but you love them enough to live their life. You want them to be happy even if it's not with you. Love is selfless. And it seems hard to be selfless sometimes but when you really love someone you can do it so easily. I never realized I was in love until Cathy mentioned it. I knew I loved him but I never thought about it. And when you watch movies love looks so scary but so perfect. But to me, love isn't perfect but it isn't scary. And maybe I'll never be with him, but I accept that... because I love him.

k.. well i dont know what to write

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 20:43:24 GMT

im talking to cathy cuz shes so cool
lately ive been sick i think im too nervous & scraed on im on my laptop so ignore the typos im practicing on not used to typing on a flat keyboard it a lot hrder than it looks im moving in 7 days.. next saturday at 8 am ill be in my nwe home for the nex 8 months.. i found a way for me to live fo the next while.. live as if you know why you're living. but clearly i dont because i cant even figure out what i want to eat when im hungry.. i have a lot to do i guess ill post it her so i csn remind meyself to do it after
- buy stuff
- take off my nails
- get used to the idea of moving
- finish prozac nation
- write
- pack
- iron
- get a picture of my friends so i can decorate my new room
thats all i can remember but thatll keep me busy anyway..im so frustrated and cranky and lost.. i kinda wish i had a sense of direction or purpose..but i guess i gotta wait.. just hope for the best and wait for the rest.. im gonna be in massive debt well im already in over my head.. cathy said shed visit me in uni.. a lot of people said theyd visit me in uni but people wont have time for it.. all of my high school friends wll be but a memory away.. except cathy.. cuz i know where she lives .. unless she moves... then i wont.. i miss the familiar and im not even gone yet.. its scary i guess thats the only thing troubling me but im hoping for many distractions to keep me sane i dont want to notice my environment.. and the best thing about mac is hat if i have a nervous breakdown theres a hospital on campus its really big too its not like a mini hospital either..thats whee the med students go..i have nothing else to type for now..

well well

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 03:06:03 GMT

okay so im moving in 14 days. i still have a few more things to buy and do.. i have been doing nothing the last few days ive been super depressed.. i haven't showered in days.. great... i dont care though.. no use in showering if you're staying home.. sam roberts is gonna perform at mac which makes me happy though.. my roommate emailed me n shes really pretty *jealous* i watched two movies with rae yesterday n world trade center with my mom on wednesday.. i wanna start writing again but im so lazy.. i wanna travel but i dont make enough money.. i wanna go to hollywood and france those r my goals right now.. my mind is really confused right now theres too much to worry about and not enough time.. theres never enough time.. i dont know y im still typing.. my life is boring nothing exciting ever happens.. plans always get cancelled my heart is rapidly dissolving,, great.. oh well..

i decided to update yay

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 05:07:20 GMT

lets commence with something entertaining..a part of my convo with cathy...

. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
cathy
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
i love you
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
and i mean it
I'd go there if you let me. says:
nicole. i know. hahaha. and i love you too and i mean it, as well
I'd go there if you let me. says:
you're a good kid
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
now will you eat my babies?
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
**have
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
lmao
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
wow that was... a big typo
I'd go there if you let me. says:
LMFAO!!
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
i feel so stupid lol
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
man i dont know what i was thinkin
I'd go there if you let me. says:
hahahah
I'd go there if you let me. says:
that was the best
I'd go there if you let me. says:
thing
I'd go there if you let me. says:
ever

Okay, well today was an alright day. I've learned a lot about myself and my "friends." I'll copy and paste that part of the convo also...

. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
im not gonna miss anyone from high school
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
cuz if they gave a fuck about me they would have noticed me when i dropped out.. and they would have kept in touch over the summer.. and theyll see me when im in hamilton
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
and if im worth so little y would i fucking notice their absence.. y would i miss them if they mean nothing
. : [ n ] ii [ k ] k [ iii ] : . {16 days til i move} RIP ANDRE [April 21, 2006] ...the lover in me says:
im over it... i dont wanna see anyone again .. i dont even wanna go to grad to see em.. ill say hi n walk away.. cuz their fake and i dont care

I'm happy, I have been for a month, and nobody will interfere with my happiness. I'm in contorl of my life. I might not know where I'm going but I won't stop walking, there's too much beauty.

so0o0o. its 1 am

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 05:07:35 GMT

1. cathy never mentions me in her LJ
2. im sexy
3. im goin to hamilton on friday
4. 23 days til i move
5. its 1 am
6. i havent written in so long
7. i feel like my life is goin nowhere
8. im goin to be in massive debt shortly
9. im broken.. fix me?
10. will you dance with me?
11. i still like HIM blah and i tryy not to

UPDATE

Sun, 26 Mar 2006 16:36:27 GMT

okay, well i haven't written anything in so long... i've been really busy... i finished my homework already so now i have the rest of the day to ponder and run around like a child.. im stressed with all of this university jazz... life is quite stressful.. and it'll only get worse.. umm.. im on the list for group therapy so yaay.. im failing english... which sucks... because its my best subject
GRADE 12 MARKS SO FAR..
Biology- 50
Philosophy- 78
Drama- 81
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Midterm Marks arent in yet but when they are i hope i do well
english - we're getting on Monday
peer tutoring- who knows
family studies- 86... for now
religion- who knows

whats uppp

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 02:22:10 GMT

i saw vanessa villanueva at mandarin the other day... im cool.. lol umm i keep goin to the library to get cds cuz im too poor to pay for them.. the last cd i bought was x and y by coldplay.. its decent.. umm im reading the da vinci code chapter 59 who0oo im getting somewhere in life.. what elsee... umm.. i went to teh warped tour i was so sick cuz it was wayy too hot.. but i got autographs from most bands.. the most unknown bands were better than themost well know bands.. weird huh? um.. i went up in math class im at a 65% now... im working so hard yet my marks dont show it.. i went to lakshore and high pakr today with my family and andrew.. i have an exam on thursday my 7 month anniversary.. umm.. i have soo much hw i think i should start it... byeee me or anyone else whos reading this..

BRITNEY MANIAAA

Thu, 19 May 2005 04:11:39 GMT

britney was on letterman on the 17 she hosted the..
"Top Ten Reasons To Watch Britney Spears And Kevin Federline`s New Show Presented by Britney and Kevin Federline"
10. Britney: "There`s never-before-seen footage of me wrestling an alligator."
9. Kevin: "Unlike those `Desperate Housewives` chicks, we`re not, like, 60 years old."
8. Britney: "It`s like `American Idol` except no one sleeps with Paula Abdul."
7. Kevin: "In the first episode, you can see my *bleep*."
6. Britney: "I`m hot."
5. Kevin: "She`s hot."
4. Britney and Kevin: "We haven`t had nearly enough media coverage."
3. Britney: "It`s gotta be better than this show."
2. Kevin: "If enough people tune in, maybe my wife will make out with Madonna again."
1. Britney: "In the season finale, you`ll find out Dave is the father of my baby--oops."

she will preforming in the britney in miami concert on the 19.. i love britney eeeee =)
i love every aspect of britney spears... my mood is curious because tahts the name of her perfume yay!

well...

Tue, 17 May 2005 02:32:44 GMT

i had an interview today at linens and things.. i still dont have a job.. ahh... i need money.. im soo screwed... im goin to xavier tomorrow.. i went to watch house of wax on saturday but i had to walk out.. life is hard.. i dont know what to do ne more.. i got a 91% in portuguese.. this saturday i have a cultural performance im dancing to 3 out of 4 songs.. yaayy its at 9:30 am -11:30... life is.. well..

so0o0o...

Thu, 05 May 2005 18:58:34 GMT

Hey! Alright well yesterday was mine and Andrew's 4 month anniversary.. he bought me a necklace it was soo pretty there was an inifinity symbol on it ohhhh ahhh... todays my brothers 13th bday.. ahh the teenage years.. good ol' days.. oh wait a minute.. no they weren't.. hmm today i have an interview at loblaws i hope i get the job cuz im not in school n i need to do something with my time.. i need money baddllyy.. oh ya i went to u of t at m today for a tour im soooo going there when im older cuz that university is crazzyyy.. i have a new facination with lacey chabert and delta goodrem.. britneys pregnant eee im sooo excited.. i hope she names her baby nicole... =) alrightey thats all for today folks.. buh byee.. OH YAA i dyed my hair chestnut.. but it looks black..

ello

Sun, 27 Feb 2005 22:38:16 GMT

i passed my classes yaay!.. on friday march 4th itll b mine n andrews 2 month yay!.. i never got a call back from east side marios boo! i have to go to toronto on march 1st to pull out 4 teeth.. boo!! hmmm.. thats al i guess.. =) i have a shit load of hw so i wont waste my time =)

reflecting on feb 4th

Sun, 06 Feb 2005 22:25:59 GMT

okie so first things first... i went to school on feb 4th sem 2.. i have chem with christine n basil in my class:D den math with a bunch of ppl ive never seen in my life =\ then english with ms perrotta shes soooo pretty n finally media studies with a bunch of cool ppl YAY!
PRO:i love my classes
CON: too much homework
neways moving on..
SEMI FORMAL.. yaay it was fun... dancing.. food... i didnt like the chicken but the pasta was good n mmm parmesan lol sexayyy lol.. i looked cute as did everyone else... it was mine n andrews one month anniversary =)<3
mm n thats it ill upload a pic of us we're a cute couple

2nd entry

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 04:46:31 GMT

k well i went to work today all pissed off about my bad day... saw the ppl who saw or heard me drunk... buh cudnt apologize i felt too guilty i jus avoided them buh justin made fun of me damn fucker sall good.. nick gave me alcohol n i got so hyper time gos by sooo fast wen u drink i love alcohol... i hope i dun get addicted to it tho buh i got presents :d
-50 dollars
-30 best buy certificate
-pjs
-clothes [too much clothes]
- so...? kiss me
-ferrero rocher
-lippglosses:D

if i didnt get alcohol i wudnt have an amazing day thanks nick =D

worst christmas everrr

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 17:36:57 GMT

k last yr i wrote 2 entries for xmas eve so this year ill do the same...
k woke up hearing my annoying brother type
i didnt sleep at all last night
im single
im working today so i have to apologize to everone at work n im scared to death
a box fell on my head
i keep falling
i dindt get a present from my cousin cuz im "too old" for it meanwhile i went all out to buy her one n shes fuckin 30 years old.. n im old?
im sad n i wanna cry like mad
everythings going wrong n i jus wanna b happy =(
nothing gold stays. . .
i want this to be just a bad dream.. sum1 please wake me up =*(

long entry..

Fri, 24 Dec 2004 03:39:50 GMT

k last night i got pissed drunk im such a fucking idiot... i lied about my age... i regret what i did cuz now im gonna have to deal with consequences i thought i was sober wen in all reality i wasnt christine n my mom told me things i did n i dun even rmember doing it... i cud have sworn i was sober.. like i drink occasionally n i usually drink a lot.. buh i remain sober buh i got soo fuckin drunk... im gonna get made fun of for the longes t time mainly cuz i was the only drunk one there.. i shudnt have lied but i drank cuz i felt liek i had to.. im tired of being a fucking good girl im tired of being this girl that everyone thinks i am.. thats not me im not a gina thingie.. who says dumb things 24/7... im gonna do what i fucking do n if ppl dun like it well FUCK U lol today all day ive been stressing out about goin to work 2mrw im gonna fucking cry im soo scared i dunno what to do or say.. i dunno.. nick shorten said to become mature u have to be immature first or sumthn liek taht n hes right... ill never kno maturity til i fuck up n this time i did.. my mom was only mad the ngiht of shes okie with it now.. liek wha can u do.. i fucked up im only human... i decided my next year courses i think... english.. literature.. writers craft.. math.. family studies.. philosophy.. and drama then ill have a spare.. maybe ill get accepted by a university.. i styll need my community service hrs isnt that just miraculous.. im dying of thirst i need a fucking water right now.. 2mrws xmas eve n im workin i havent even wraped up my presents yet.. im sooo screwed,, ive made too many typos within tha last couple of minutes of me writing this which is rather sad n i keep gettin fucking poop-ups like grrrrr GAY COMPUTER *thinks of a tactic then remembers throw book at comp tactic... tries... misses the computer* oh well least i tried... i guess ill write more 2mrw n i guess it was a short entry.. it wudda been longer if i was sober n knew wtf i did last night buh nooo... i ddnt fuck man.. y am i so imperfect?...

ellooo

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 01:28:13 GMT

oc is a sexy show
i got an assignment in bio n i spent 4 hrs staring at the question. yay.
nothin new ever happens in life
i need excitment
i need sex
but i wont do it
why?
i do not kno
im hungry i want chips or cookies or both
la la laaaa
this is the most pointless entry ive ever written... or is it? dun dun dunnnnn

wooooo im backk

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 02:14:08 GMT

haha i keep forgettin i have a livejournal eh? welll i remembered just now so lucky u i guess.. i wonder if ne1s gonna even read this if so reply to it lol please n thank u.. so im failkin my first class ever grade 12 bio with a 30% n i have no chance of redeeming myself so i cud slack off first period for now on go me go.. uhh we keep gettin scripts in class.. i got rejected like recently soo ive been heartbroken i wan a bf.. i dun need it i jus wan one.. my hormones r soo outta wack.. i hate being horny all the time lol its kinda like.. sucky u kno well newehh.. yemis not comin back ever again n dat sucks.. im always workin n dat sucks... i been happier lately n that doesnt suck lol hmm i wanna become a model.. n i wanna get my hours done soon.. n i wanna get my g1 i wanna do lots of things ohh n i wanna go christmas shopping sum1plz remind me to do this.. oh n im gettin 5 new piercings on my ears this xmas too :D yaayy okie im done byye

yaay internet works again lol

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 00:08:25 GMT

k so my internet won't close anymore so now i could ACTUALLY write in here without it closeing right wen i press *update journal* hmmmz.... i like a new guy now.. hes pretty hot too.. haha.. im a blonde now... umm.... i went to dc.. dindt like it much buh meh wa can u do.. lol uhhh i dunno wha else to say buh school starts in like a couple of days n i dun even have nethin bought now.. cathy soooo better come with me.. she promised =*( buh byyee for now

can i call u my baby boi?

Tue, 27 Jul 2004 21:20:39 GMT

k well firstly if my internet everr worked id be updatin a loott more... hmm so whats new... i <3 carl... =D haha n what else. . . IM GOING TO DC IN 7 DAYS WOOOOSHH!! um ya thats pretty much it my marks were shit i hadta drop outta co-op cuz of mmy stress level i was diagnosed with depression yay! BE STRONG BE STRONG NOW TOO MANY TOO MANY PROBLEMS(8) haha neways... i got a new ring for my bellybutton its sooo sexified n i changed it all by myself.. see there aint that much thats new.. k so if u wanna stalk me heres wa im doin this week
2mrw- my hair [light brown n black highlites]
thurs- gettin g1 finally my bday was in january... frig
fri- packing for dc
sat -work 8am-4 pm harveys
sun- work 8am-4 pm harveys
monday- gettin nails done =)
tues- leaving for dc.. so ill see u at pearson airport if yu dun visit me ill kill u
oh n i made a dvd of pictures of me its soooo sexxxxiiee =D kk well im gone ill update all my dc events wen i come bak if my internet works:|